Student Diaries: Through the Waves of Quarantine Moods
Blog Entry No. 1
From then on, it was a continuous cycle of feeling confused, inspired, then drained.
I could still vividly remember how I felt during the first few days of quarantine. It was the middle of my second semester in freshmen year when everything turned in to blur. Suddenly, everything was forced to shift online. At one moment, I felt a little relieved that classes were suspended — a typical student thing, I guess. However, deep inside, I know that it will be different, and it was. Everything was suddenly different, so much different in just a snap.
I remember how blank I feel when I was doing my Research Digest from my Purposive Communication Class, one of the first requirements that I had to accomplish online. I felt blank because I haven’t still fully absorbed the fact that I am back home, with my family, in my childhood room doing my requirement. Is this for real? I asked myself. At first, I felt a little confused about what I should do. I feel like I was not equipped for online classes. Then I turned that confusion into a feeling of enthusiasm. I tried just to accept the reality, go back on track, and continue life. However, with everything that has happened in the world and how my requirements were piling up, I immediately felt tired; my back hurts, my neck feels like it was about to break, and my eyes were on fire. From then on, it was a continuous cycle of feeling confused, inspired, then drained.
At this moment, I feel like I got used to it already. As I wake up each day and remember those first moments in quarantine while doing uni stuff, I would feel very anxious. But then I would remind myself that it just another day, another day of trying to get through the waves of these quarantine moods. Might as well live life because, after all, it is the new now.
